I have managed life pretty well up to now. Taking a few steps back, and looking at the big picture, and realizing that I’m growing up leaves me in a “whoa” freeze. I can’t really grasp what life has in store for me, but I’m trying my best to go along with it. Aside from stress, exhaustion, and everything that just constantly piles on me, life is pretty fucking awesome. Actually living it, being a teenager, and being able to just have fun all I want, it’s a pretty damn good feeling. I’m blessed with great friends that have stuck around for as long as I can remember, and it leaves me extremely thankful.
I must stop living so much in the past, I have to look forward, and push forward. I can’t keep doing what I’m doing to myself, it really can’t be healthy. People come and go, they aren’t meant to last forever in our lives. That’s something I need to accept myself, but I’m still growing, still striving, and most of all, still learning. For what I’m worth, I have been given one life, and I promise to do my best to manage it and give it my all.
There has been one person that has affected two years of my life, and I let them take over and become a priority. I can’t really claim that I have a regret towards this person, there has been amazing memories, and heartfelt feelings towards her, but I have come to a conclusion to finally let go. Just to simply let it become a memory, there isn’t much I can do to bring back those times. And if there will be someone else that can replace that happiness of yours, I’m sorry I couldn’t do my best. But damn it, I tried. I really attempted to finally put someone in front of myself for once, and holy shit it feels great. Through it all, I only look at what good has came out of this experience, and I can honestly say I have loved it all. It has been a lesson learned, and I’m glad you were the one that I learned from.
I’ve kicked myself to the curb for far too long, and I’m just going to enjoy my teenage years while I can and not let stress or people ruin it, I’ll simply look at them like “bumps” in life, and everyone gets over bumps, you just have to take it head on, or find alternate routes, but I promise I will get passed the bumps in life that try to slow me down, and I’ll look back and thank those hardships that tried to stop me, for giving me a lesson to learn from, and something to continue life for.
breathe more, live more..